I try to focus on painting as verb first and foremost. I want the work to possess the answers, to establish and drive the questions. I am mostly left with the binary choice of to leave or to remove. I try not to overthink each action, I observe the whole and then act; the period between observation and action can be seconds or months. It could best be described as a gut feeling whose immediacy is tempered by the memory of bad choices and loss. It seems my job is to try and remain in some way detached from the process but alert enough to try and capitalise on specific moments, to be aware of important points of change. If loss is key, beauty is a problem, attraction is a problem, then great will must be summoned to sacrifice beauty and attraction for the good of the painting as a whole. Faith, daily ritual, vision, sacrifice, loss and reward. It’s a slow and frustrating process and fighting off anxiety and self doubt is a daily battle; an act of faith that my toil will be rewarded in the end. Through this process verb becomes noun-painting.